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Randys Poems

DISEASED
(by Randy E. Halprin)
I have to silence my head.
I have to silence my screams.
I've fallen victim to the germs
Of another man's disease.
There's no one to help me.
No one to lend a hand.
No love to lean upon.
No one who understands.
So, here I stand -
like a broken man.
Holding my heart,
In my blood soaked hands

Slowly consumed by this man's disease.


NOVEMBER
(Guess I was wrong again)
(by Randy E. Halprin)
Last year - November -
My life was never the same again.
This year - November -
Has only brought me pain again.
When finally everything had gone my way.
I was happy -
In love again.
I thought nothing could ever go wrong again.
Guess I was wrong again.
It's the same old song.
It always is


MAYBE YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND
(an acrostic)
(by Randy E. Halprin)
Maybe you don't understand what you mean to me.
All I have ever done is believe in you.
Longing to one day touch you.
In all of this -
All I ever wanted was your love.


BLUE FLAME
(by Randy E. Halprin)
A blue flame,
Consuming me.
Eating away at my oxygen.
I can't breathe,
Don't let it be our end.
A fire so hot.
A love in pain.
Burning up my heart,
I'm in flames -
praying for a cleansing rain.
My screams,
My dreams ,
Consuming me
Why would anyone do this to me?
Or us

Why would anyone try to burn us up?
Why is this red turning to blue?
What do I have to do to prove,
That I had been nothing but true.
But this blue flame still burns.
Exhaust this flame.
Make me whole again.


THE CURSE
(by Randy E. Halprin)
I'm cursed, I really believe

I'm cursed, can't you see?
Nothing really belongs to me.
Nothing is ever here to stay.
I've been cursed in this way.
It'll probably remain -
Until the day I'm in a grave.


BEAUTIFUL FACE
(Don't Walk Away)
(by Randy E. Halprin)
Beautiful face -
Where did you go?
Lovely woman -
I need to know..
I can't get you out of my head.
Your face (Don't walk away)
Your love -
All frozen in time.
Why can't I gaze -
Into those eyes one more time?
Why can't you whisper that you're still mine?
Try as I may -
I can't stop thinking of your beautiful face.
Full of grace and enchantment.
Don't you know you haunt me?
Please don't walk away

Don't take away -
That beautiful face.


LIKE FALL
(by Randy E. Halprin)
In the cool breeze,
We sit beneath our tree.
The one that you carved our name's into.
You smile at me,
Your head resting on my knees.
It always felt too good to be true.
As floating leaves pass by,
you watched tears fall from my eyes.
You whispered, "I love you"

(We were like fall)
I remember and I wish
That life wasn't as harsh as it is
When I had hope in my hands
When I didn't have to try to understand
Love was what it was
And you were what it is
Yeah, sometimes I wish that life wasn't as cold as it can get.
I moved to kiss your lips.
Your head resting on my hips.
Sitting beneath our tree,
As you gave into me...
And it's disappeared - it's all gone.
A life frozen in time.
No more tears over you.
I won't try this time.
I don't care this time.
I don't care if we were like fall.
But you know that's a lie


UNKEPT
(by Randy E. Halprin)
Long after the fact
promises broken
words unkept
clock bells banging
a noose is hanging
we all lied to our selves
thinking it would be better,
this time around.
I never thought it could happen -
that the clouds could pour out so much pain.
All because she walked away.


THE GIFT
(by Randy E. Halprin)
It fell from the sky.
We couldn't figure out why,
or what it was.
It seemed to be a gift that gives.
A simple box that seemed to live.
With the beat of a heart and the joy of kids.
Something we could all be a part of.
Something that fell from the stars.
It had a glass window that we could all look upon,
But we could only see ourselves.
Who we truly are deep inside,
What secrets that our soul can hide.
And so I took a look,
I read myself just like a book,
Trembling in awe,
Because I looked (Just like you)
Beautiful and pure.
Something we all are,
If we hold love in our hearts.
It whispered, "Love is the Human Cure".


NO MORE
(by Randy E. Halprin)
They chased me down,
I'm falling apart,
running around.
I'm just about through with being around,
for the sound of my heart breaking is driving me,
Crazy.
Who am I becoming?
Are these things my fault,
or yours?
Can there ever be a cure to this disease
in which eats me whole?
In which punches holes into my soul?
"No more" I want to cry,
not again, I want to scream.
But it's already taking over me,
poluted my dreams.
Sent blood rushing into the streams of consciousness,
to the point where I have no control anymore.
I can't repair my broken heart.


A FULL MOON
(by Randy E. Halprin)
He has hair growing out of his ears,
out of his mouth,
out of his nose.
His teeth are bearing,
his fangs are flaring,
he's close to sharing his fears with you.
The moon is glowing,
and he knows that you know who he has become.
(The moon is full and bright,
while the world hides in fright.
Tell everyone to say good night,
Bush is on the town tonight.)


I'LL BE EASY TO FORGET
(by Randy E. Halprin)
It's much easier for you to move on than me.
You have all of the things in the world to make you forget more easily.
But not me -
I'm kind of stuck with memories not easily suppressed.
But you -
You have a world that will allow you to forget.
Soon you may not even remember my name.
Not that my name will really matter.
After all,
I'll be easy to forget...


A WORLD UP IN FLAMES
(by Randy E. Halprin)
Floods.
Hurricanes.
Tsunamis and wars.
I want to cover my ears,
I can't take any more.
Could this be our end?
Our Apocalypse.
Eclipsed -
By all of this madness,
And Eternal sadness.
A loss of lives,
And our loss of love.
As I watch my world go up in flames.


ANGEL OF DEATH
(by Randy E. Halprin)
Up on the hill I see a girl standing, holding hands up into the sky.
The rain falls and thunder crashes around.
I watch her brown hair soaked, glistening in the light that flashes against the battered sky.
I watch as wings begin to sprout from the blades of her shoulders,
Ripping through her skin and a scream erupts echoing around the hills.
Her new wings white as snow.
She turns around and faces me.
Looks down the hill towards me.
She holds her arms out,
Beckoning me.
New wings breathing, flapping in the dangerous wind.
"Come to me." She whispers.
The wind carrying her words to me.
Possessed,
I walk to her.
I climb the hill and grab her hands as she pulls me to her.
Sepia eyes and blood red lips - oh, those lips,
Those lips,
Those lips...
Her mouth moves towards mine and her wings envelope me,
Drawing me in closer to her as I'm crushed to death.


LITTLE RED HAIR GIRL
(by Randy E. Halprin)
(This song was written in 1995. One of the very first songs I had written. The music was written by Dan Kauf-man and Randy Halprin. Lyrics by Randy Halprin.)
Hey you, little red hair girl,
Where are you going tonight?
Hey you, little brown eyed girl,
I see some sort of fright.
What did I do -
What did I say to you to make you slap my face?
What did I do to make your eyes turn grey?
(And I tried to make you laugh. I tried to make you smile, but you wouldn't recieve me...)
Watching the cars,
Watching the cars go by,
I stop to check my watch.
Then I realize that it was just yesterday we were together,
Laughing and holding each others hand.
And I know that it won't be long til we're together forever,
Laughing holding each other.
((But I try to make you laugh. I try to make you smile, but you won't recieve me...)


PAST, PRESENT, FUTURE
(by Randy E. Halprin)
You were tied up in emotions,
wanted to capture the moment -
to live in the present.
But now you want the future,
when the future doesn't include me.
Don't you think I want the future too?
I'm stuck dealing with the present,
living off fumes of a past that is slowly slipping away.


MY RAGE
(by Randy E. Halprin)
Can you really be that low -
To fuck with a love that continues to grow?
Your life is sad,
Pathetic,
Cheap,
And miserable.
Odd that your life is still valuable -
If only you wanted it to be.
Instead you zero in on me,
Try to play dirty.
Do you really think I'm that weak?
Do you really want to mess with me?
Do you really want to threaten me?
I'll be like thorns in your feet

I'll give up my peace -
To find out who you are -
Nothing but
Cheap,
Pathetic,
And miserable -
Yeah, count those syllables -
Sucker.


TEST
(by Randy E. Halprin)
I don't believe you any more.
I don't believe you any more.
'Cause if you really want to leave

I'll show you to the door.
I can't believe you any more.
But I won't love you any less.
If you really want to go -
I'll put you to the test.
(What makes it hard on me is you had my heart.
I may not let go right away,
But I can surely try to start.)
I don't believe you any more.
I don't believe you any more.
'Cause if you really want to leave

I'll walk you to the door.


BANG BANG
(by Randy E. Halprin)
Does shooting plastic pistols at the TV
add to a child's naivety?
When we are all told that Jesus saves
and bodies fill mass graves

As bombs explode by
and people in the streets die.
Our video games are the only real flames.
Day by day souls sucked away.
War was just a game,
something to protect the interests of you and me.
Another bomb explodes in the street.
Somewhere another child loses an eye.
Arm.
Leg.
Head.
Bang Bang

We're all dead.


6:00 P.M.
(This title is in reference to the time that Texas performs its executions)
(by Randy E. Halprin)
This place is haunted.
Death fills the air.
Distorts my perceptions -
Death is everywhere.
When life is grey.
And love is pain.
Ghosts freeze the day.
Keep us from staying sane.
This place is haunted.
Fills you up with dread.
You can count away the days

And soon you too will be dead.
No time left.
The clock is running out.
The voices will remind you

When it's time to check out.
This place is haunted.
It's the only place they know.
6:00 P.M. reads the clock -
Guess it's time to go.


BORN AGAIN
(covered)
(by Randy E. Halprin)
Cover me, bury me
Get rid of me;
Can God really save me?
Covered in dirt
six feet beneath the earth
Clawing to find the light of day.
I
m calling to see if I can be saved.
I
ve never prayed this hard;
Or this way- Is it true I can find grace?
Will I rest in peace or fall apart into pieces.
Covered by dirt, I
ve had enough of this hurt,
I
ve had enough to drive me insane..
This pain will..
Drain
Drain
Drain
How will I be
Saved
Saved
Saved
Where is God
s face?


RETURN
(by Randy E. Halprin)
I'm going home to you today.
'Cause everything in my mind
s okay.
I see a perfect sky.
Bright and blue.
I know there
s nothing wrong,
Between me and you.
(But in reality nothing seems right. In reality nothing seems
fair. No one seems to love. No one seems to care. I
m falling down
I
m broken down. Broke over you. I want to return, return home to
You...)
I
m going home to you today.
Cause everything in mind is okay.
I see a perfect smile,
Eyes shining bright.
There are no more tears,
Between me and you tonight.
( Let me return. Just let me be. Let me come home. Let reality
be what I want it to be. It
s not right, and its not fair. No one
seems to love. No one seems to care. We
re all cold. Were all so
numb. Broken down, from falling down; Where
s the return? )
I
m going home today.
I wish everything in my mind was okay.


INTO THE DEPTHS
(by Randy E. Halprin)
Here I am, a child again
Full of promise, but nowhere to begin.
Broken teeth, and broken dreams
Here I am, a child again.
Daddy says he love me
Mommy says she cares
They break my heart with abandonment
They fill me with despair.
Why do I remember eating off a floor
Why do I remember being twisted and torn?
My brother only an infant
But I
d protect him forever
I
d protect him in an instant
(Where are you dear brother?)
Oh, we were so young-
Live
s barely begun
Look at me now,
Just look at me now
Wondering how..
When youth had so much promise
When the world seemed to give
Now I
ve been swallowed-no more room to begin
So I disappear-fallen into despair
Sink swallow and swim
Back in the womb, back into the depths
To face my only fear
Yeah, I
m a child again.
I
m a child again.


ALIBI
(by Randy E. Halprin)
Ignite.
Ignite.
A star explodes tonight.
But will we ever reunite-
Under the black moon sky?
And why-
Why do you say those things;
And still cry?
Will we ever be alright,
When your alibi was never air tight.
My heart explodes under a black moon sky.
Ignite.
Ignite.
No more tears tonight.
Please,
No more tears my dear.
When your alibi was never air tight.
It will never feel right.
(Is it any wonder why..
Alibi rhymes with lie?)


WHAT DO DREAMS MEAN?
(by Randy E. Halprin)
In my dream
I
m screaming
in my dream
I'm swinging
laughter and cries
surround me
I'm kicking
I'm pleading
please don
t let me down!
the voices they taunt
the voices they haunt
FEED HIM!
THROW HIM TO THE BEAST!!
THROW THE BOY TO THE GATOR!
HE SURELY NEEDS TO EAT!
like a hammock
I'm rocking
inching closer to the teeth
one last heave ho
and my parents let go of me..


IGNORANCE
(by Randy E. Halprin)
Judge me and hate me.
Lacking such empathy in your heart.
Committing murder in your soul

Trying to tear me apart.
Using words of hatred to slay,
(My views are distorted you say?
No understanding,
Making snap shot judgments with an out of focus lens.
If compassion is distorted

Well, what's yours then?
I'd much rather embrace compassion,
Than your obsession to hate.
So, you say you'll toast to my death.
That's what I get.
I'm a poster boy for executions.
I deserve to be dead.
You know?
I think it's you who's sick.
Self absorbed in ignorance.


THRIVE
(My Loss)
(by Randy E. Halprin)
My weakness,
My loss of prowess;
Comes from having a heart that thrives on love.
Taking that away from me would be like

Would be like poisoning superman with Kryptonite.
Take my ability to love away and it's like

It's like ripping my soul out of it's shell.
It's like sending me directly to hell.
I want to thrive.
It's what pulls me from the void.
Take love away from

And I can be destroyed.
This is a song I was writing the other day, but couldn't quite get the rest of the words to come out, but in a way what stands says more than enough. It's about longing for lost youth

1529
(by Randy E. Halprin)
I'd rather hold her hand.
I'd rather see her smile.
Run my fingers through her hair.
Just kiss her for awhile.
When a kiss was about exploring.
Young romance was about adoring.
Enjoying the moment.
I think my heart will always want this

Chorus: ('Cause I'd rather be fifteen than twenty nine. I'd rather stay young, than to live just to die. Who at fifteen felt more alive? I'd rather be fifteen than twenty nine.)


BEAUTIFULLY BORING
(by Randy E. Halprin)
You're so beautifully boring,
Adoring.
Staring out at nothing.
This yearning for you,
Won't cease though.
You could sit and stare forever,
And I would still be lost in you.
Adoring you.
Taking you in.
We don't need words,
Only eyes.
Only this silence that passes us by.
Beautiful

And boring.
As time passes us by.


MK ULTRA
(by Randy E. Halprin)
Subliminally,
Your words are seeping into my brain.
Washing over me,
Pouring into me like acid rain.
I never want to think for myself again.
My brain rotting away.
Wastefully,
Why does love lie so blindedly?
You've covered me, smothered me.
Taken away my ability to see.
Lost me in white noise.
Suffocated by this black void.
My ability to think clearly

Has been destroyed.


WALK AWAY
(by Randy E. Halprin)
Violently,
You've shaken me.
Opened me up,
Like a never healing wound.
Miserably,
Shaking with grief.
I fall down on bruised knees.
Tired of your duplicity.
Your mockery of me.
If I'm to be

If I'm to ever be at peace.
Then you'll have to leave.
Turn away at the beginning.
Stop wasting your tears on something that was never meant to be.
Stop wasting your tears on me.
Just leave.
Just walk away.
I've got nothing more to say.


FINIS
(by Randy E. Halprin)
It's over.
It's really over this time.
No being nice,
Tired of being kind.
Patience is out the window.
It's time to say goodbye.
No vacant promises.
Words empty and void.
You tore me in two.
It's my heart that you've destroyed.


HANGING ON A HOPE
(by Randy E. Halprin)
I'm hanging.
Just barely,
By a thread.
A fiber of hope.
But I can't continue to do this.
To wish it into existence.
I can't dangle from the edge I'm on.
Because I'm one thread.
One single thread.
Away from insanity.
I can't keep waiting
For you to come around.
To see the err in your ways.
I'm barely hanging...
Losing grip.
I can't keep hanging on a hope.
I'm destined to slip.


DIVINE
(by Randy E. Halprin)
Relax.
Breathe.
In and out,
Come to me.
It's not the end.
It could never be.
Relax.
Feel eternity.
Feel my soul.
Join with me.
Hold my hands.
We'll always be.
I drink from your essence,
Drink you completely.
Breathe.
It's not too late.
We'll reunite -
If only at heavens gate.
Because time nor love ever really dies.
Feel me.
Feel the divine.
It's never too late.


PHOENIX
(by Randy E. Halprin)
I will rise again,
From fire and your games.
You may have brought me down,
But here I am again.
My heart is new,
But you thought you could
Burn me in your flames.
You thought you could
Ruin me again.
Chorus:
(I will spread my wings.
I can fly away.
As far away from you -
As far as night is day.)
I will love again.
Of this I am sure.
No longer will I burn again.
No, no more broken words.
I'll rise amidst the ashes.
And from the pain you bring.
I am a phoenix.
And you are nothing.
You are nothing.
That's right:
You are nothing to me.
Repeat chorus:
(I will spread my wings....)


C.O.D.
(Collect On Delivery
(by Randy E. Halprin)
Speak through me.
Whisper to me.
Like an explosion in the night,
For all to see.
I'd give up everything,
To only be
(With You).
I'd sell my soul,
For one more day
(With you).
God, why can't you see?
All that you mean to me.
Exposing my soul,
For all the world to see.
I'd sell my soul,
For a chance to be yours.
I'd sell my soul,
To only be with you one last time.
You can collect on delivery.


I. V.
(by Randy E. Halprin)
Every life taken,
Tears another soul.
Every breath stolen,
Breaks another mold.
Every needle puncture,
Makes a small hole.
Rips apart at the seams,
Tears humanity as a whole.
I'm exhausted from all this death.
Man kills man.
Blood and Lust.
Will we end this madness,
Of revenge and regret?
A thousand years of blood.
Why can't we love instead?
A thousand years of blood,
Why can't we forgive.
Mean while,
The I.V. rips


AMNESIA
(by Randy E. Halprin)
My memory has collapsed.
Imploded under stress.
I've forgotten all I've known.
I felt my brain explode.
A little boy ran away.
All that has been wronged can never be right again.
My memory is gone.
I don't know where I belong.
I'm not sure that I really care.
After all,
what can we remember when we're buried in the ground?


ALL OF THE TIME
(by Randy E. Halprin)
I can't say what it was about you.
I can't say what it was about you.
The words don't come out right,
I was trembling with fright
(at your beauty).
No words to say what's right to keep you here.
You were like lightning in a bottle.
So we said good night -
one last time.
A bed on fire -
one last time.
You'll always live on in my mind.
You'll always be a part of me -
all the time.


EFFIGY
(by Randy E. Halprin)
I smell gasoline again.
Smothering me again.
Will you be the first to light the match?
I know, I know -
It was just a little scratch.
But it cut my soul,
It made me bleed,
and it made me scream.
So now you want to pour alcohol and gasoline on me?
Have I become your effigy?


AESTHETICS
(by Randy E. Halprin)
I fall in love with beauty.
Aesthetics and all.
The fall.
To forget how ugly I feel inside.
A fall.
From grace-
To disgrace.
To fill this void with a pretty face.
I
m inclined to erase the decline.
Of my aesthetically challenged life.
Symmetrically - I
m really incongruent.


ANOTHER
(by Randy E. Halprin)
Another day.
Another day.
Another word.
Another way.
Broken promises,
Can't find a way.
What do we have,
Left to say?
You don't say yes.
you can't say no.
Leave with a maybe.
But nowhere left to go.
Another day.
Another day.
Another word.
So here I'll wait.
Another world.
You don't return.
Another lie.
Now it's too late.


RINSE
(by Randy E. Halprin)
Washed away.
A love rearranged.
All I ever wanted was a chance to play -
Without my heart being cut away;
Or turned away in shame.
My heart defaced.
You watch my tears stream down my face

As my love for you is rinsed away.


ETERNAL YOUTH
(by Randy E. Halprin)
An obsession
To live forever
Beneath the tree of life

To bite from the apple of
Wisdom
And escape this
Doom
A peril of mankind
(Total)
Awareness of soul
And mind
Something that's not yet mine
Out of touch with time
To never cry
Or ever die
A chance
To get it right
In this life
If only I had forever
If only I had more time


DON'T LET ME DROWN
(by Randy E. Halprin)
Adrift

Slowly slipping.
Just an arms length away.
On the waters of your ocean,
Drowning in your waves.
I reach

Try to keep myself from sinking.
Trying to grab a hold of anything.
You're only an arms length away.
But maybe

Maybe it's too late.


GRACE
(by Randy E. Halprin)
Grace.
Mistakes.
Atonement we shall make.
For our sins.
For the sake of our love.
Faith will not fade.
In a time filled with so much hate.
(So Grace, she sings to me.
Grace, she says she loves me.
Regardless of my mistakes.
Grace, she forgives me.
This, she will not take.)
We're all human inside.
We're all divine.


TEAR DOWN
(by Randy E. Halprin)
We were so hard to build,
But much easier to tear down.
Love crumbled into ruins;
And deafened by the sound
Divided our love into parts,
Parts and pieces of our hearts.
What love can
t be poisoned?
What happiness can
t be ruined?
Tear,
Tear my down again.
It seems it never ends.
Tear,
Tear me down again.
So that I can
t pretend
Like Babel.
Like Pompeii.
One big doomed play.
Tear,
Tear me down again.
Will it ever end?
Tear,
Tear me down again.
I don
t want to pretend.
Like Babel.
Like Pompeii.
What more is there to say?


STAY PLEASE STAY
(by Randy E. Halprin)
Calling on your name,
In the same old stupid ways.
When all you do is play your games,
Am I getting in the way?
Would you tell me that I
m wrong,
If I knew that you were right?
Always getting in your way,
Without me ever putting up a fight?
(Stay please stay!
I am wrong,
You are right.
Stay please stay!
Please just one more night
)
Breaking glass to cut my hands;
It
s a pain you cant understand.
Broken mirrors, scream your name!
Yeah, I
ll play your stupid games.
Yeah, I
ll play your stupid games


NEED
(by Randy E. Halprin)
I need it more than you could ever know.
I love her more than I could ever show.
Yet, every morning I wake up more alone.
Another tear for silence,
Another heart without a home.
I bleed it more than, wounds that cannot heal.
I'm lost in thoughts of blackness from words that she will steal.
For every evening when I pray and kneel.
Another ache for substance,
Another moment that I lose my will


MISTAKE
(by Randy E. Halprin)
Staring at a white wall.
I dream awake.
Silently she stirs.
Images of my mistakes.
They flash before my eyes.
I sit and I shake.
I can't stop this shivering
Or this growing hate.


CROCODILE TEARS
(by Randy E. Halprin)
If I had a penny for every crocodile tear you've cried,
I'd be one hell of a rich guy.


VIOLA
(by Randy E. Halprin)
Sadness weeps through stained wood.
Sadness sings,
Disparity and pain through tightened strings.
Sadness speaks and sadness clings.
It's all she can bring to me.
Ambient hopelessness again.
Viola

Play for me.
Comfort me through your pain.
Viola

Play for me,
Tell me all will be okay.


INTERNAL BLEEDING
(by Randy E. Halprin)
I can't believe,
My disbelief,
In a broken dream,
That never favored me to begin with.
Chance always implicated
I would fall apart.
Fate dictated,
I be without.
And now...
I'm stuck,
With my guts inside out.
I'm bleeding from inside out.
I've internalized too much pain.


QUENCH
(by Randy E. Halprin)
I'm so hungry for your lips.
I'm so thirsty for your kiss.
I'll never quite see why you are starving me.
Depriving me.
Of what we used to be.
I'm so hungry.
I'm so hungry.
Let me please
Take a bite of you.
Let me drink from you.
Let me kiss your lips.
Quench my thirst.
My desire for you lingers on


NO SECOND CHANCE
(by Randy E. Halprin)
When I'm gone,
How will you feel?
What burdens will you bear?
And the regrets that won't let you heal.
There is no second chance

I'm only giving you heads up.
Warning you once.
Because when I'm gone,
You can't raise me up.
There's no returning from the grave.
No matter how you'll hurt,
And the mistakes you have made.
It's your choice.
It seems the choice you have made.
(Once I'm gone

When I'm gone

There is no second chance.
Once I'm gone

When I'm gone

There is no second chance.)


ALL WRONG
(by Randy E. Halprin)
Could I have it all wrong?
My perspective on life,
Love,
Souls,
And songs

Where does it all come from?
Where does it all dwell?
Is it in my mind
Or in my heart
?
Could it come from heaven?
Or could it come from hell?
Could I be wrong?
Each time I fall in love
Is love in chemicals,
Or does it come from something more lyrical?
When I fall down,
When I fall in love.
When I fall each time

Could I have it all wrong?


I COULD
(by Randy E. Halprin)
I could hate you,
But I choose not to
Hold a grudge.
Because

If I can't forgive,
How can I ask
To be forgiven?


CHRONIC DISORDER
(by Randy E. Halprin)
Worse than having my eyeballs dug out with spoons.
Worse than being hung from the moon.
Worse than falling on my face for you.
Is how I still feel about you.
Worse than being run over by a train.
Worse than drowning in the rain.
Worse than blowing out my brains.
Is how I still fall for you.
Over and over and over again.
Don't say maybe, don't say pretend.
Lying to wait.
Dying to be friends.
It's the last beat of our hearts that marks our end.
Worse than freezing in the cold.
Worse than feeling a hundred years old.
Worse than being crushed by the fold

No, nothing could ever hurt worse than having fallen in love with you.


PINT
(by Randy E. Halprin)
You could've taken my very last pint

The only bit of blood my heart had left to pump.
That's what I would've given to you.
That's how much I loved you

All you had to do was ask.


FOOL
(by Randy E. Halprin)
Just like a fool,
I will fall for you again.
Just like a fool,
I will call for you again.
You'll step all over me.
And even though I can see.
My love is blind,
I am weak.
You'll stomp all over me.
But just like a fool,
I'll continue to let you .


IT'S NEVER EASY
(by Randy E. Halprin)
Here I am with my heart in my hands,
Facing you all over again.
For so long we've been playing pretend,
I didn't want to believe that we could ever end.
(It's never easy to say so long. It' never easy to leave alone.)
As I wipe the tears away,
I'll watch you walk away.
I'll hear my heart break -
Echoing,
In our loves death wake...
(It's never easy to say so long. It's never easy to be alone.)


SEPTEMBER
(by Randy E. Halprin)
September has never felt so wrong.
I used to be able to sing my birthday song.
But now it's filled with pain and grief.
September will never be the same to me.
September,
A broken home.
September,
Leaves me lost and cold.
September,
All alone.
September,
Left me with nothing to hold.


HOW BEAUTIFUL YOU ARE
(by Randy E. Halprin)
Her eyes shine like sparkling diamonds.
They've been crystallized,
Caught wide eyed -
Surprised and Beautified.
Could she be any more beautiful than she is right now?
Her metamorphosis into a butterfly.
Her wings spread wide,
she flies away to kiss the nearest flower,
Resting on green stemmed towers -
As the rain falls down,
she bathes herself in cleansing tears of love.


COULD'VE WOULD'VE SHOULD'VE
(by Randy E. Halprin)
Could've Would've Should've,
That's what my dad used to say.
Now those words are racking my brain.
Driving through like nails,
Into the membrane.
If only I'd done this.
If only I'd done that.
If only I had another chance...


BUBBLE BOY
(by Randy E. Halprin)
Living in a heart shaped bubble,
I didn't want the trouble -
That this love would bring.
Between doubling my problems,
and dealing with reality,
My Heart has burst -
Just like I knew it would.


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